on Thursday I had to say goodbye to my front and side tooth. Another reason for me to bitch and complain about Sjorgens disease. it literally DESTROYS your mouth. Right now it was only 2 teeth, eventually it will be all of them, but for now my bottom teeth are held in by wires. My perfectly straight and white teeth turned into a mouth full of loose teeth, gum disease, periodontal disease, shallow roots & receeding gums all in the matter of the last 5 years. All due to autoimmune disease and lack of no siliva. The periodontist failed ahead of time to let me know that I could not eat with my partial dentures in. Finding out that I have to take them out to eat makes me realize that I will never be eating in public again, because I now look like a freak show zombie hillbilly! Thankfully I left that day with my fake teeth so no one had to see! And they look perfect, you can't tell and they are perfectly straight again and the color matches perfect.
But im in pain (I know I know I should be used to pain). It's the pain where you can feel a heartbeat in my mouth, throbbing pain that pain pills don't touch. The pain that doesn't rest. It's freaky being toothless, running your tongue along the gums where they used to be. The last time I did that was babyteeth and I was what 6ish maybe 7?
Once again I'm missing out on life. Today was a dance day, Cadance had her Brainerd dance competition and I'm at home icing my face missing out on watching my girl do her thing. I hate when I can't keep up. I hate when I drop out of commitments, but that's part of incurable untreatable autoimmune diseases. Sometimes I let people down and unfortunately most of the time it's my family. I can't have anyone relying to much on me or they will just be let down.
hopefully I get some videos sent my way! (Usually I'm the one that records them) next weekend she has another solo contest so I've just got to think positive and not miss that!
But im in pain (I know I know I should be used to pain). It's the pain where you can feel a heartbeat in my mouth, throbbing pain that pain pills don't touch. The pain that doesn't rest. It's freaky being toothless, running your tongue along the gums where they used to be. The last time I did that was babyteeth and I was what 6ish maybe 7?
Once again I'm missing out on life. Today was a dance day, Cadance had her Brainerd dance competition and I'm at home icing my face missing out on watching my girl do her thing. I hate when I can't keep up. I hate when I drop out of commitments, but that's part of incurable untreatable autoimmune diseases. Sometimes I let people down and unfortunately most of the time it's my family. I can't have anyone relying to much on me or they will just be let down.
hopefully I get some videos sent my way! (Usually I'm the one that records them) next weekend she has another solo contest so I've just got to think positive and not miss that!